Listening to Pearl Jam stopped Dennis Rodman from killing himself

The more we talk about mental health, the more lives we can save.

Posted 10.09.2019 08:03
Updated 10.09.2019 08:13

Dennis Rodman

Pearl Jam

Mental Health

With the rising public awareness regarding mental health becoming an important and vivid wake up call for many who thought they were alone, everyday we’re seeing new stories, articles and interviews from everyday people, celebrities, and more about their sturggle’s with contemplating suicide.

Whilst it’s not a positive thing that so many people are being open about it, as it means the reality of how many actually struggle in the first place is coming to light, which is opening up the idea that society is very broken, it’s a huge positive for people in need of help. Mental illness has always been a shameful burden for most. A large proportion of people chose to take their own life instead of talk about their health. This needs to continue to change.

In a new interview, former Basketball legend, Dennis Rodman opens up about how close he came to ending his own life in 1993 by heading to a parking lot with a gun. “For me, I wanted to be loved by somebody or someone because I was never loved by my mother or father because they were never there” he tells

He explains how he wrote a suicide note and then went to kill himself with his own gun. “So one day, I wrote a note and went to the parking lot of the Palace. I had a gun rack, and I had a gun in my car. I had it in my hand.”

At this point, it’s almost the point of no return for many, however, Rodman explains how he decided to listen to Pearl Jam for a moment, which ultimately saved his life. “for some reason, I played this music. I put it on, and I was listening to this song and this music, and I was just debating. It didn't have anything to do with basketball. It had to do with this love that I wanted, and it suddenly just left me.” He continues “this song came on. It was Pearl Jam. "Even Flow" and "Black" and stuff like that. And I had the gun in my lap, and next thing you know, I fell asleep listening to Pearl Jam. Then I woke up, and all the cops and everyone was there. I didn't know what was going on. I totally forgot I had a gun in my hand. They got me out of the car. That was pretty much what it was.”

Rodman explains how much more accessible help is now “I think it's really different today. There are so many outlets and so many open doors that you can go through and reach out for help. It's so common now. Back then, we didn't have those things. You didn't have people you could call right away. We didn't have the Suicide Hotline.”

Music has long been known as a life saver, and it continues to be for many to this day, however, if the music isn’t enough then please message a friend, do not be ashamed, most of us have been there. Or, type “suicide hotline” into google and call the number. You will not be judged, you will not be made to feel small, you will simply get to talk to someone that actually understands.

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Author Bio: AC Speed

Senior Editor

I started my career as a music journalist in 2013 and have been involved in the music industry as a touring musician, studio engineer and artist consultant since 2002, as well as previously being a signed artist. My passion for delivering high quality, informative music-related news is a daily driving force behind the content I create. Born in the United Kingdom and currently living in Sweden. Skål!


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